The Cover Up

Covering up

Why is it that we cover our hurts?
Usually with a joke or a smile....
Playing it off...as if... we really don't care?
But the whole time....we are dying inside...
We cover so well at times...that we even convince ourselves...
That it really doesn't matter...
And truthfully...in the end...it may not matter...
In the big scheme of things...
But for today...this moment...it is huge...
It is life altering...and our world stands still...
Refusing to move past this momentous event...
But no one knows...cause we choose to conceal it...
We put on the smile...you know...the one that we've practiced...
Over and over...
It fools 'em every time...
Fools everyone...but us...
We live out this moment...in our own time...
Until one day...we realize...
That it was just one more life lesson...
That we needed to learn...
Somehow...it's the hurt's and the struggles...
That we endure in life...
That eventually make us stronger.


Kristy Turnage
3-15-2010

Words

Sometimes I think its just easier to not say anything at all...
Struggling to find the right words...the soft words...
The words that will bring comfort and hope...
The words that cause you to search your own soul...
Life changing words...revelation...truth...

Words that will build up and not destroy...
Words that will lift the spirit...not tear it down...
Sometimes its not even the words that are chosen...
But in how they are delivered that makes all the difference...
There are times that the words just flow...
Its as though they are just meant to be said...
Almost as if I have no choice in the matter...
They demand to be written...
The weight of them so heavy on my heart...
That to not pen them...pains me...
Its as though I carry the burden of the unsaid...
The weight of which only I can feel...
The words that need to be spoken...
Once penned...I can finally exhale...
The burden lifted...

Kristy Turnage
2-21-2010

 

The Covering

Why is it that we cover our hurts?
Usually with a joke or a smile....
Playing it off...as if... we really don't care?
But the whole time....we are dying inside...
We cover so well at times...that we even convince ourselves...
That it really doesn't matter...
And truthfully...in the end...it may not matter...
In the big scheme of things...
But for today...this moment...it is huge...
It is life altering...and our world stands still...
Refusing to move past this momentous event...
But no one knows...cause we choose to conceal it...
We put on the smile...you know...the one that we've practiced...
Over and over...
It fools 'em every time...
Fools everyone...but us...
We live out this moment...in our own time...
Until one day...we realize...
That it was just one more life lesson...
That we needed to learn...
Somehow...it's the hurt's and the struggles...
That we endure in this life...
That will eventually make us stronger.


Kristy Turnage
3-15-2010

Just As

Just as...
Just as the wind moves through the trees...
Just as the grass blows in the breeze...
Just as the sound travels through space...
Just as the sun shines on your face.....
Just as the flower blooms after the rain...
Just as the healing comes after the pain...
Just as the morning comes after the night...
Just as the darkness is destroyed by the light...
Just as the waves continue to churn......
Just as the heart continues to yearn....
Just as the fish swims in the sea...
So do you... belong with me."
Kristy Turnage
10/06/2009

To Just Be

"Deep within each of us is a desire to be...
To just be...you know...
To be free... to be....
To live...and let live...
To not be judged or labeled...
Nor to be criticized or belittled...
Nor to be made to feel as though...
Somehow we just don't measure up...
To a standard that is so far out of reach ...
That the goal is absolutely un-obtainable...
Deep within each of us is a desire to be...
To just be... ourselves....
And for that to be enough.

Kristy Turnage
4/26/2009"

 

My Words

There are times that it flows...The words that just come
When it is not only necessary but manditory to let it all go
Each word taking on such power and meaning
Revealing the most intimate details of my soul
Putting pen to paper gives such a sense of release
Of this unforeseen weight...the burden of which... only I can feel.
As word for word is written... it is only at that moment that I can finally breath
It's also at that moment that the burden is finally being lifted
And I can take the breathe that has been so stiffled before this moment.
And finally exhale...

Kristy Turnage3/2/2009

No Words

Sometimes there are just no words...

None...that even come close....

Close to being heavy enough....

Heavy enough to relay the weight...

The weight that sits so heavy on my heart...

Sometimes there are just no words...

It is at those times that only the tears can relay...

The weight of the burden...

And speak the unspoken....

Kristy Turnage

3/27/2009