Isolate

I wish I had the words to express…

Everything that I need to express…

And I am so aware of the fact...

That I NEED to express it…

But my mind says to just shut down…

That no one else needs or wants…

To know how or what I am feeling…

I just want to shut myself off from everyone…

I don’t want to talk to anyone…

I don’t want to interact with anyone…

I just want to close myself off from everyone around me…

Isolate…hide…find refuge in my self…

My thoughts…my hopes…my dreams…

Sometimes that’s the only place we feel safe…

No people…no condemnation…no judgment…

Only me…and my thoughts…my hurts…

But there is still that need within me…

That need I have to be heard…

And for someone to say that “It’s okay”…

That everything is going to be “okay”…

That I’m okay…

And that time will come…

That message will come…

But for right now…

This moment…

This very second…

I will take the time I need…

To isolate…

Kristy Turnage

3-9-10